So the truth is that I just really cannot wait to get back to New York. Its not even my excitement that makes me want to go back; its how utterly unproductive and low I feel out here. I have my family, a job in retail and some close high school friends to hang out with; but well, really, I am just addicted to Manhattan - every square inch of it - and the constant social and academic stimulation of college. And I miss Jewish life like crazy - I'm completely isolated out here. So if any random stranger has read my last few blog entries, and was baffled - well, I'm not myself. Don't give up on me yet.